Friday, October 22, 2010
I am currently trying to keep my head above water in one of busiest seasons of my life. Between school, youth stuff, and my "bustling" social life I haven't had time for much else! So here's a breakdown:
I'm reading this book. It's a winner. You should get you one.
A few weeks ago our youth had a free car wash. It was great fun, but everyone got a little whiny towards the end. And there was a leaf tornado. Not kidding, this huge bunch of leaves slowly started swirling till it was full speed throwing stuff all over the place. It lifted a bike helmet, a bucket, and a trash can and carried it all into a nearby field!
Note how everyone is just watching Dusty wash the car...
The leaf tornado-- you kinda just had to be there for this but it was the craziest thing I've experienced in a long, long time!
Also in this month we've had a wedding:
Frankly, just thinking about the rest of the stuff that I have to post about from this month is making me sleepy. And since I already have my computer in bed because I'm supposed to be doing online homework well... it's too good of a scenario not to rest!
More later, to be sure.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
This is the first installment of my experiments with pumpkin recipes. Enjoy!
The Recipe: Pumpkin Angel Food Cake
So I did a really poor job of documenting the "process"--could be because the basis of this cake is semi-homemade at best, using a boxed angel food cake mix. Let's just say that about ten minutes after this pictures was taken, my house smelled lovely!
This was Dusty's reaction after taking the first bite. Actually probably the fourth bite. He hates having his picture taken. Also, considering he has not gone back for more, he was not a huge fan of this cake.
In all, I was not a huge fan either. The recipe called for a creamy ginger filling, but I didn't have any whipped cream so I had to skip it.
To be fair, I'm not a lover of angel food cake in general. This cake wasn't bad at all, but it was definitely not the best thing I've ever made.
It did, however, pair nicely with a cup of Harden's Vienna Roast Medium Dark Coffee!
Monday, October 11, 2010
Friday, October 8, 2010
Today we got the news that we've been dreading for a year and a half.
The news that chemotherapy is now ineffective, that cancer has spread, and that my aunt is on the downward slope.
Cancer is the scariest thing I can ever imagine facing. Everything about this news frightens me, down into places that I didn't even know could be scared. Scared that my aunt is alone, scared the she's not a believer, scared that my mother could get cancer someday, scared that I could.
When you get news like this it's uncomfortable. Like a weight has descended onto your chest that makes breathing difficult. You know that you've got to get the weight off but you know this is a heavy weight to move. How can I fit this weight into my everyday life, because I'm not strong enough to move it?
And part of me hates that right now I'm also thinking about myself: how I'm bad with hospitals and with silence and with finding the right words to say. I'm bad at comforting and I'm bad with tears.
This whole death and dying thing is really quite awkward, wouldn't you agree?
I wish I had all the time in the world; I would go to Ohio and sit with my aunt and talk and keep her company and make her smile and maybe even laugh and I would take her shopping and feed her ice cream.
Because more than I dread the awkwardness, I dread being alone. And I dread loneliness not just for myself but for those that I love. Being alone is one of the most hollow feelings on the planet, and being sick is also hollow so that makes for a lot of emptiness.
And as a Christian I've heard that we should not fear death and that we should celebrate a person's life when they die. But what if I'm afraid of death both for her and for everyone else and what can I celebrate knowing that if she goes in her present state she will go not knowing the Lord?
What is there to celebrate with that? Nothing.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
I was having a chat with my friend Devon today and as tends to happen when we talk, our conversation turned to wonderful, glorious, food!
I mentioned that I had a bunch of recipes that I'd been collecting all year involving baking with pumpkin.
May I digress for just a moment? Yes, I can bake with pumpkin any ole time of the year. But I just don't feel right about it unless I'm well in to the month of October. And by "well in" I mean about six days.
So, I weeded through my pumpkin recipe collection and made it a more manageable endeavor. I'm going to do one a week and document my progress. Here are the recipes, in case anyone would also like to take a stab at them!
- Homemade Pumpkin Ice Cream (Adam T., if you are reading you will be treated to this in a few weeks!)
- Pumpkin Butterscotch Nutella Bread
- Pumpkin Spice Cheesecake Bars
- Mini Pumpkin Whoopie Pies
- Pumpkin Angel Food Cake with Creamy Ginger Filling
- Pumpkin Truffles
- Pumpkin Pie Pancakes with Pumpkin Maple Syrup
- Pumpkin Cinnamon Rolls
- Pumpkin Roll with Cream Cheese Filling
- Pumpkin Spice Donut Muffins
That's ten week's worth of pumpkin recipes! Hopefully I will get so tired of pumpkin by the end that I won't want to venture back into that realm for a long, long time.
Or I will just keep doing it because I love it so very, very much!
Probably that one.