have you ever had a moment when you look back on something that you thought you wanted
and then you look in front of you at what you actually received
and realized how irrevocably happy you are now
compared to how "irrevocably" happy you thought you would be
had you just gotten what you thought you wanted
in the first place?
i just had one of those moments
and he-that-i-received is sitting in front of me
on a chair
playing a video game.
and i am irrevocably happy.