irrevocably happy

have you ever had a moment when you look back on something that you thought you wanted

and then you look in front of you at what you actually received

and realized how irrevocably happy you are now

compared to how "irrevocably" happy you thought you would be

had you just gotten what you thought you wanted

in the first place?

i just had one of those moments

and he-that-i-received is sitting in front of me

on a chair

playing a video game.

and i am irrevocably happy.